Syrn's Chronicles

Obama wins....

2008-11-05T07:56:00.000-08:00

Finally, Obama wins the election and becoming the president of the United States of America.
it seems that the election this time was just different. the euphoria of his winning has comes across the world and everybody hope he can bring something different from what Bush offered.
through his winning of becoming the President, i just hope he and his administration can make things goes better. and all these can encourage us to realize that its time for us to change, to make this world a better place to live. for everyone.
make this world peace place to live.

Change We Can Believe In

Make it more interesting....

2008-10-22T04:32:00.000-07:00

MAKE IT MORE INTERESTING ..... !!!

MAKE THINGS MORE .... EXCITED.....

^^

Whats on my Zen

2008-08-25T23:22:00.000-07:00

10 most played song in my playlist :

1. alicia keys : no one
2. leona lewis : bleeding in love
3. project pop : bukan superstar
4. the fray : how to save a life
5. especially for you
6. maroon five : won't go home without you
7. pussycat dolls : when i grow up
8. blink 182 : miss you
9.maliq n d'essentials : itu adanya
10.aditya : be mine

Another Fav Song....

2008-07-25T21:48:00.000-07:00

its one of my fav song
from yellowcard titled Only One....

Only One

Broken this fragile thing now
And I can't, I can't pick up the pieces
And I've thrown my words all around
But I can't, I can't give you a reason

I feel so broken up (so broken up)
And I give up (I give up)
I just want to tell you so you know

Here I go, scream my lungs out and try to get to you
You are my only one
I let go, but there's just no one that gets me like you
You are my only, my only one

Made my mistakes, let you down
And I can't, I can't hold on for too long
Ran my whole life in the ground
And I can't, I can't get up when you're gone

And something's breaking up (breaking up)
I feel like giving up (like giving up)
I won't walk out until you know

Here I go, scream my lungs out and try to get to you
You are my only one
I let go, but there's just no one that gets me like you
You are my only my only one

Here I go so dishonestly
Leave a note for you my only one
And I know you can see right through me
So let me go and you will find someone

Here I go, scream my lungs out and try to get to you
You are my only one
I let go, but there's just no one, no one like you
You are my only, my only one
My only one
My only one
My only one
You are my only, my only one

source : http://www.lyrics007.com

terlambat ?

2008-07-24T19:59:00.000-07:00

klo ada yang bilang 'lebih baik terlambat dari pada tidak sama skali'
is it so?
setahun yang lalu, aku pikir it's just too late...
sampai sekarang pun, i still think its just too late...
do u think i will have that thought for the rest of my life ?

my heart knew something that my mind always neglected
my heart scream for something that my mind always ignored
my heart whispered something that my mind always pretend not to hear
my heart reminds me things that my mind try to forget

there are things that my heart and mind can't compromized.
may be at all.
that what makes me to lose my faith about my own self.
but i keep on standing.still.
i just don't know where i stand.

and now i walk...
walk away from all those uncompromized ....
heart n mind, i just want u to know how i missed you when u encouraged each other....

^^

2008-07-24T19:48:00.000-07:00

mungkinkah kau merasakan apa yang kau rasa aku rasakan?
apa sebaiknya jangan kau rasa kau merasakan apa yang kurasa?

aku ga tau apakah yang semua yang aku telah lakukan itu benar atau tidak?
apa definisi benar dan salah dari semua keputusan yang sudah kubuat?
aku juga ga tau apa akhir kisah dari perjalanan yang kulalui tiap harinya...

aku hanya berharap,
bahwa aku tidak akan menyesali apapun. lagi.

feeling lonesome....

2008-07-20T20:31:00.000-07:00

rasa kangen ini mulai menggerogoti jiwaku...
sedikit sich....tapi lumayan kerasa lah....
apalagi klo malam tiba...
weisss....berasa aja tuh hembusan angin bercampur dengan rasa yg dikirim entah dari mana oleh seseorang entah dimana...
omongan pun sudah mulai ngelantur...
pikiran pun sudah mulai melayang jauhh...
andai.....

ya...andai...
kurang tau apa harus feelin' into it so deeply sehingga memakan malam ato menguras imajinasi
atau...biarkan saja pretending rasa itu ga ada...?

lemah...
i might not as tough as i used to be
but i can't give up to this kind of things...

seneng juga kadang merasakan ketidak pastian...
tapi...apa coba yg bisa kita anggap pasti dan mutlak?
ya terlepas dari kodrat kita sebagai manusia yg pasti mati, pasti butuh makan dan lain-lain...

pikiran seperti...ya...jalanin aja yg ada...
sumtimes i feel it shudn't be like that.
i have tergets, dreams, and hopes...
i failed may times...
but my effort to try to stand again is more harder than facing the failure itself...
to make myself believe in it, have faith again in it...

i just have to re-think things again.
once i failed, now i stand....

-chie

Alhamdulillah....

2008-04-17T08:36:00.000-07:00

tonight, i feel like i'm losing something.
things seems to be alright, but my heart says no.
i was thinking of things travelled in my mind
well...is it because....
my exams goes bad?
i didn't do good in my first day at work?
or i was missing my family so much?
...????

but i don't think those are the reason why i feel this way...
well, after a long thought...
i realized that my heart was asking for something that i already missed.
a religous touch, thought, and breeze.
udah lama ci ga menyiram hati ci dengan siraman rohani yang mendatangkan kesejukan, kedamaian,kebahagiaan dan ketenangan.
Alhamdulillah...
ketika mata ini tertutup oleh kesibukkan duniawi,
ketika mulut ini jarang menyebut namaMu,
ketika yang ada di pikiran ini hanyalah kesenangan duniawi
Allah telah memberikan hamba hati sebagai pengingat
Allah telah memberikan hamba kehampaan sebagai penyadar
Allah telah memberikan hamba kegelisahan sebagai ketukkan

bahwa jiwa ini sudah mulai lalai, sudah mulai lupa, sudah nulai malas...
bahwa raga ini sudah mulai jauh dari jalan Allah...
Alhamdulillah, Allah masih mengingatkan hamba bahwa kebahagiaan dan ketenangan sesungguhnya adalah ketika hamba berada dekat dengan Allah
adalah ketika hamba berdzikir menyebut nama Allah

Alhamdulillah....

Ga bisa diungkapin...

2008-01-09T07:40:00.000-08:00

berawal dari pertemanan kita...
aku mengenalmu sebagai teman yang menyenangkan dan bersahabat
kita berbicara tentang apa yang terjadi di sekitar, cerita tentang hidup dan cerita tentang rasa.
apa yang aku rasakan tidak bisa aku ungkapkan saat itu.
kebersamaan yang kita lalui membuat aku merasa 'i'm kinda bit into you'
dan aku mengungkapkannya dengan perhatian yang samar, melalui sayang yang tersirat, dan melalui gurauan yang sebenarnya aku rasakan.
aku tau kenapa.

tapi we grew up and life goes on
banyak cerita yang ada di benakku dan kadang ingin mengulanginya lagi
banyak cerita yang kalau kita membicarakannya mungkin kita akan tertawa bersama mengingatnya
banyak kebiasaan ku yang hanya kau yang tau dan tentangku hanya kau yang tau
biarlah hanya kita yang mengerti. aku menikmatinya.

apa yang kita miliki adalah ikatan sayang yang tak terdefinisikan.
yang membuatku sadar bahwa
ada rasa kangen kalo beberapa hari kita pisah
ada rasa khawatir kalo aku tidak mendapat kabarmu berbulan-bulan
ada rasa ingin kembali melalui hari-hari itu dimana aku ada disampingmu saat kau merasa sendiri atau saat kau ingin berbagi kesenangan atau kesedihanmu
ada rasa nyaman saat aku berada di dekatmu, memperhatikan gerak-gerikmu atau tersenyum saat kau bicara. aku memperhatikanmu.

aku senang memperhatikanmu. memperhatikan caramu bicara, caramu tersenyum. aku senang.
aku senang mendengar suara mu, mendengar cerita yang bisa membuat mu tertawa dan menangis.

andai aku bisa selalu ada disisimu saat ini...
hal itu tidak begitu penting karena apapun yang terjadi pada kita, aku akan ada untukmu sebagai orang yang sayang padamu, sebagai orang yang peduli tentangmu, sebagai orang yang akan selalu ada saat kau membutuhkan, sebagai orang yang akan menemanimu ketika kau merasa sepi dan sendiri, sebagai orang yang akan mendukungmu atas apa yang kau cita-citakan.
kau begitu jauh dariku, tapi rasa kangenku bisa membuatku merasa dekat denganmu.
senang rasanya ketika aku bertemu denganmu setelah sekian lama...
dan ingin aku berucap.."aku kangen...."
tapi kata itu tidak mungkin terucapkan.
aku tau kenapa.

satu hal yang perlu kau tau bahwa walaupun aku tidak ada disampingmu, aku akan selalu ada disini untumu.
aku tak perlu menjadi kekasihmu untuk bisa menjadi orang yang berarti untukmu.
kata sahabat pun mungkin tak bisa mendeskripsikan apa yang kita rasakan.
aku mengerti jika kau tidak pernah menyadarinya, atau... sebenarnya kau tau tapi kau pura-pura tidak tau apa yang ada di hati ku untukmu.
kau tidak ingin kita berubah. tapi membiarkan kita seperti apa adanya kita.
selama kau menginginkinnya, aku akan tersenyum untukmu.
saat ini aku ingin mengatakan bahwa kau sangat berarti untukku.
sangat.

UAS ^O^

2008-01-06T07:54:00.001-08:00

UAS nich....
senen, rabu, jum'at trus minggu berikutnya lagi...^o^
SMANGAT!!!
walopun besok, persiapan Tekom kayaknya rada2 kurang nich...
belajar algoritma LR Parser...kagak ngarti- ngarti...
hikshikshiks....^^
belajar mesin turing agak tersendat sendat....
huhuhu...^^

walopun nilai quizes ci banyak yang jeblok...tapi....usaha lagi yak...
yang penting...ci berusaha melakukan sebaik mungkin...
dan cermat..soalnya kadang2 baru nyadar nya pas udah ngumpulin kalo yg dikerrjain itu kurang...

lets do our best...!!!

-chie ^^

I wish you were here...

2008-01-03T23:28:00.000-08:00

i remember last year, when my friends and i were in a small movie premier
it was crowded, full of people...
and everyone is enjoying the show...
but somewhere deep there, i know I'm missing something
something that i can only feel with you.
to be around you.
i wish you were there.

when i visited a place. a small place but incredible.
where i saw ice cream clouds painted in a blue sky
or where i saw stars blinking at the darkness above.
i felt really peace and full of thoughts.
but somewhere deep there, i know I'm missing something
something that i can only feel with you.
to share with you.
i wish you were there.

the time when i had fun with friends...
getting along with them
playing games or laughing about some jokes that they made
go out have a lunch or dinner together
i felt really good and i enjoy it.
but somewhere deep there, i know I'm missing something
something that i can only feel with you.
to laugh with you.
i wish you were there.

there are times when i feel screwed up
when i burst into tears, a don't-know-what-to-do feeling showed up
when i feel that i can't breath normally
when i feel i wanted to run as far as i can
when i wanted to hide myself
or when i hold my pillow tightly and the tears wont stop
i wish you were there
saying 'it is going to be alright'

when i suffered from a stomachache or fever
and i was afraid being alone
i just wish you were there
saying 'you've got me with you'

it doesn't mean that i can't stand on my own feet for things like that
it doesn't mean that I'm totally weak that i put myself into a 'wishing you were there' all the time
but it's a confession for me... that everything will be different when i got you by my side
in every events in my life
in a bad times..or good times...
everything will be different.

above all those written...
i also wish that i were there for you.
in every events in your life
in a bad times..or good times...
even when my present will not make any difference for you.

I've got the best thing in this world....

2008-01-03T20:28:00.000-08:00

I've got the best thing in this world and thats LOVE.
having so much love to give, so much love to feel
thats the greatest thing ever

love is the greatest gift of all.
love in a family, love in a friendship, love in every single thing
with love i heal myself from hatred.
hatred can only destroy ourselves...
and that isn't cool....^^

and all love i feel is a gift from Allah.
and i hope with this love, i can be a better person.

I'm a girl who believe in love
who believe that love is one of the most important element in life
who believe that only love can cure the hatred.
and i love ya...

-chie

Masa2 Kuliah dulu...

2007-12-25T08:03:00.000-08:00

Masa2 kuliah dulu...
salah satu unforgetable moment...
tiga tahun mengisi hari-hari di POLBAN...
wat i called as my luvly campus...

Setelah mengikuti SPMB dan berbagai ujian masuk PTN yang semuanya gagal dicapai...
ada satu yang berhasil ...Fisika...huhuhu...ga jadi ngambil gara2 kurang direstui papa, dan akhirnya mencoba tes ke POLBAN, pertama kali kesana...
ummm...tampak gersang, anginnya kenceng (naek motor jadi we' kerasa..) sehingga debu2 di jalanan spanjang ke POLBAN ikut hilir mudik meyatu dengan angin sepoi2 itu...
ada sawah nya pula...hihihi...lucu...
itu 4 tahun yang lalu...
sekarang mah udah beda euy...
udah ke-kota2 an ^^

setelah ikut 2 kali tes..akhirnya lulus juga...diterima di JTK angkatan 03.
sesuai kegiatan annually nya...ada ospeknya...
jarang ikutan kena hukuman...karena dapet pita kuning...alias..."agak2 sakit..."
paling ci dihukum nya ya...disuruh nyanyi madep tiang listrik atau pohon...
yah...itu mah emang dah hobi...nyanyi teu pararuguh...ga' disuruh juga, ci mah bakal nyanyi...
jadi..ga kerasa kayak dihukum...hehehe
culun banget kali yak waktu itu...

sesampainya di jurusan...ada pengenalan jurusan...plus masuk himpunan...
senengnya...kenalan ama temen2 baru...
taun pertama it was just the beginning...
taun kedua, kinda bit stressfull but fun...
taun ketiga, gotta work hard with all the tense...
bulak balik lab TA...lab multifungsi...
kosan kedua...

tiga tahun di JTK, it was all great.
dosen2nya yang nice and great.
friends nya...yang well...friends forever...
they are all really nice...
kemana mana suka ngabring....
jadi kayak yang mu demo aja kalo jalan2 bareng...^^

semuanya sangat menyenangkan...
and it makes me to feel like...
i'm missing those moments...^^

Long WeekEnd...

2007-12-24T17:22:00.000-08:00

asiknya libur...^^
lumayan banget tuk bisa ngelakuin banyak hal...
Especially...Jalan2...hehehe
Pengen ke pantai atau kemping...tapi cuaca kurang mendukung...

tadinya liburan ini mu dipake tuk ngerjain tugas...bikin makalah, practicing stuffs...
tapi...ga degh....kenyataan nya...
ci terlena oleh hari-hari yang namanya libur...
bawaannya...pengen maen mulu...atau seneng aja di kosan...walopun ga ngapa2in...
tapi karena ci udah sering nunda tuk ngelakuin suatu hal, yang berdampak tidak bagus nantinya...
i wont do that this time.
pagi ini rencananya browsing ttg Parser, baca trus ngerangkum dech...^^
at least harus ada yg selesai hari ini...
FedEx buka gak ya hari ini? blum ngirimin Rapot nih...
hmmm...liburan akan berakhir besok...
tgl 27 kuliah...
blum blajar tuk kuis.....
hikshikshikshiks...

o ya...kemaren sempet dateng ke acara pagelaran budaya di ITB...
it was so cool...
i mean...seneng banget bisa ngeliat banyak hal ttg budaya Indonesia...
K-E-R-E-N !!!
cuman sempet makan kerak telor ama es cendol...
sgitu aja udah kenyang banget....
pengen nyobain papeda...ga kesampean...
ntar deh...kalo ada lagi...
pengen nya sih ada acara kayak gini annually..

ci cuman sempet ngunjungin stand2 barang2 kebudayaannya...
beberapa tarian yang awesome....!!!

pulang awal, pukul 1700...ujan soalnya...
sempet sich nonton angklung sambil berpayung ria...
pokoknya....it's all fun!

dengerin lagunya boyzIImen...
album yang Remedy itu so romantic, i guess..
alunan musiknya...bikin ci bisa ngerasain lope2 gitu dech...
terbawa suasana waktu di kantor dulu...
pas lagi masa2nya campur aduk...
hehehe...
keep listening...
Happy Holidays...!!!
keep your days with smile and have a nice day yo' ....

-chie ^^

Pengennya sich...

2007-12-24T08:57:00.000-08:00

pengennya sich ngilang.
bbeentaarrr ajaaaa....
pengennya sih being invisible.
ada di deket orang tapi orang itu ga tau kalo ci ada.
apalagi kalo punya super power kayak Hiro yang di film seri Heroes itu.
"Ting!!!"
then...here i'am in the place where i wanna be.

bukannya ci ga bersyukur dengan apa yang udah Allah beri ke ci.
I'm so thankfull for everything...its just a dream...^^

lagipula, kenapa ci harus menghilang?
is it because i dont have enough courage to face what my eyes see? what my heart feels???
trus..kenapa juga ci pengen being invisible?
is it because i don't feel confident being recognized by anyone?that's why i want to be unseen???
dan kenapa pula ci pengen punya power kayak Hiro?
is it because i can be wherever i want without working hard on it?
just with a single "Ting!" i can be wherever i like without working hard on it?

if those are the reason why i was dreaming it for.
then... forget it ci !!!

Bingun'...

2007-12-24T08:33:00.000-08:00

zAzAzAzA....

pengen bilang...
tapi ga ah...
apa yak?
atau... gimana yak bilangnya???
agak susah...
ga susah susah banget sich...
tinggal utara'in aja apa yang ada di hati..
ummm...iya gitu?
ga akan apa2?
gimana kalo misalnya jadi tambah runyem?
ya...resiko...
yang penting, dah ga ada yang dipendem lagi'kan?
tapi...apa ini cuman yang terlintas untuk sesaat aja?
apa ga sebaiknya nunggu tenang dulu?
ummm...
ya....
ada dua pilihan....
u use your freedom to speak
tell wat is there inside...
well, whatever happened next...sure, u have your backup plans already just in case things aren't going in the way u expect it to be
atuuuu....
just keep it with u. handle it by yourself. use your power of "exchanging that kind of thoughts into good thoughts" .
whatever it is...

the CHOICE.... is YOURS...

-chie ^^

Wat's up?

2007-12-24T08:06:00.000-08:00

hampir setiap sore ujan mengguyur kota bandung. dingin, dan kadang ngebuat ci males kluar kamar. spending my holidays di kosan lama.
sengaja ganti posisi tempat tidur, biar langsung menghadap ke jendela sama pas pertama kali tinggal disana. ketika matahari mulai tampak, sinarnya langsung menyinari seisi kamar itu. dan itu membuat ci hangat....^^

hari-hari ini, tidak banyak hal yang terjadi. but it was all special. nyate bareng2 di rumah qq, yang tadinya mu banyakkan...yg dateng cuman 7an. dan dari 86 tusuk sate yang dibakar...cuman nyisa 16 tusuk akhirnya...
Kuenyang...^^

it was all nice.
kangen ama yang di Riyadh nich...
huhuhuhu...
kapan ci bisa nyusul yak???
Pengennya jalan2 ke luar kota...spending few days in a different place.
but i have class and quizes...hikshikshiks...

but, i hope things are going to get better.
amin.

Idul Adha...

2007-12-19T02:52:00.000-08:00

Happy Eid Day..^^
Happy Holiday...

ga mudik kali ini..
kuliah masuk hari rabu ini...
yeeee....!!!
Semangaaat.
ssseeeeemmmmmaaaannnggggaaaaattttt!!!!

"moga kita diberi ketabahan dalam hidup"
(dikutip dari percakapan sore hari ^^)

-chie

Morning....

2007-12-16T15:42:00.000-08:00

Listening to...
"Sugar, ah honey honey
You are my candy girl
And you've got me wanting you....."

jam menunjukkan pukul 6:43 wib
jam 0900 nanti ada kerja lab...
trus sorenya kuliah dech...
lapeeer nih ngomong2...
ga ada makanan..^o^
dengerin lagu sugar, sugar...
buka jendela...menghirup udara pagi hari...
tapi langitnya ga terlalu cerah...mendung...tertutup awan tebal...
wahhh...cu udah bangun pagi...hehehe...iya..secara ci ga bisa tidur...
belum bobo nich...
missed my fams a lot
missed my friends yang nan jauah di mato...but close to heart...

hari ini mu ngaps yak?
ngerangkum materi...beberes...doin' my daily activities aja...

things are alryt when i see things with one eye closed and see things straight
but when i open both of my eyes and try to look around, i realized how messed up it is
realizing that,sumtimes i pretend not to see things that i dont want to see
and i just thought of gud things around
bringing my positive thoughts...

thanks to u .

Seseorang menantikanmu disana

2007-12-16T14:52:00.000-08:00

seseorang menantikanmu disana
di tempat yang bisa kau datangi hanya dengan beberapa langkah
seseorang menantikanmu disana
berharap kau datang dan menjemputnya suatu saat
tak peduli berapa lama ia harus menunggu
ia akan terus berharap dan menunggu

seseorang menantikanmu disana
ia terus berdoa
berdoa agar ia dapat dipertemukan dengan mu suatu saat nanti

mungkin kau tidak akan mengenalnya lagi saat itu
dan mungkin ia akan diam tanpa mengeluarkan satu kata pun dari mulutnya ketika bertemu denganmu
atau mungkin kau akan berada di sampingnya tanpa menyadarinya

ia disana, di tempat yang aku sendiri pun tidak mengetahuinya
tapi ada sesuatu yang membuatku yakin
bahwa ia disana. menantikanmu dengan rasa yang hanya sedikit orang yang merasakannya.
terlalu banyak kemungkinan yang akan terjadi memang.
tapi aku hanya tau bahwa ia disana...

huaaaa....

2007-12-16T14:43:00.000-08:00

penyakit baru nih...
ga bisa tidur. pengennya tidur, nyoba tuk pejamin mata...
it didn't work. ga bisa tidur sama sekali...
sebenernya ga papa sih kalo ga tidur juga...
tapi badan bakal ngerasa kurang fresh...
karna toh ga ada yang dikerjain juga.
kan jadinya cuman bengong, nyoba untuk tidur.
biasanya i think of thing yang bisa ngebuat lama kelamaan c ngantuk..
tapi ga bisa...
biasanya baca buku sampe ketiduran....ga bisa juga...
biasanya nntn tv atau sambil dengerin lagu slow melow...ga bisa juga...
ya sudah...ci matiin lampu, matiin tv, winem, atau apapun...
ga bisa juga...

Hmmmmm....i need to sleep!!!
udah beberapa minggu ini ga bisa tidur...
tidur mah tidur...tapi baru bisa tidurnya....pas subuh...

knapa yak?
tapi kadang sekalinya tidur...
wuiiiih...bangunnya ksiangan mulu.
ARGH....ngerasa kurang sehat...
hikshikshiks....^^

Wat will you do when u feel...

2007-12-16T09:52:00.000-08:00

ketika my heart beat so fast and i know that something is wrong...
or when i feel worried about uncertain things related to me or to other...
i feel something..unexplained but real.

what do u call it anyway???
but things like this... it helps me a lot ^^

1. 'unexplained' feeling level ringan

biasanya kejadiannya seperti ini:

ketika ci tau ada sesuatu yang salah
ketika merasa detakan jantung terasa cepat...
ketika kepikiran terus hal itu...
ketika ada kindda bad feeling filling my heart...

hal yang dilakukan :

kalo ci belum solat...ci solat dulu...
berdoa agar diberi ketenangan hati
berdoa agar semuanya baik2 saja
nelpon orang2 terdekat ci -> making sure nothing happened to them
berdzikir
mengalihkan pikiran dengan nonton tv, film atau dengerin lagu...atau tidur...

InsyaAllah tenang lagi....

2. 'unexplained' feeling level medium

biasanya kejadiannya seperti ini:
tambahan dari yang level ringan tentunya

ketika i can't do anything
ketika ci udah ngerasa agak sesak nafas
ketika ci ngerasa sangat sangat tidak tenang

hal yang dilakukan :
tambahan dari yang level ringan

berdzikir
jalan-jalan...jalan kaki...atau lari
jajan...makan....makan coklat...makan es krim...
fokusin pikiran dan gunakan imajinasi sekuat-kuatnya

InsyaAllah tenang lagi....

2. 'unexplained' feeling level tinggi

biasanya kejadiannya seperti ini:
tambahan dari yang level medium tentunya

ketika ci ga bisa tidur
ketika udah ngerasa bener2 sesak
ketika ci nangis sejadi-jadinya
ketika ci ga tau mau ngapain lagi
ketika sussssaaah banget hati ini diajak kompromi
ketika emosi mulai mengendalikan diri sendiri

hal yang dilakukan :
tambahan dari yang level medium

berdzikir
nelpon orang yang terdekat ci dan curhat
bener2 ngajak hati ci untuk ikut berdzikir dan terus berdoa...

InsyaAllah tenang lagi....

pada akhirnya...ketika 'unexplained feeling' itu hilang...
ci hanya bisa bilang....Alhamdulillah...
dan semakin ci bersyukur atas hal-hal yang kadang ci anggap hanyalah sebuah hal yang kecil.
semakin sering merasakan, semakin tau arti dari ketenangan hati, dan how valuable it is.
ketenangan hati adalah salah satu kunci kebahagiaan.
dan ga ada apapun atau siapapun yang bisa memberikan kita ketenangan hati selain Allah.
membuat ci ingat dan sadar....hal sekecil apapun itu...kita tidak punya kuasa sedikitpun atas itu.
Hanya Allah yang Berkuasa.

-chie

Daily things...

2007-12-16T09:04:00.002-08:00

so, the latest news form me is that...
i'm now a student of STT located in Dayeuh Kolot ^^
ikutan nimbrung di kelas pindahan euy...

hari2 pertama merasa kesepian disini...
karena kuliahnya baru dimulai jam 1700 dan pada pagi harinya...
i don't have anything to do besides reading things or doing homeworks...
argh...i felt a bit bored by my activities...

but things are going better since i tried, somehow making myself being busy with things that are actually unnecessary. but it can mend things, i guessed.

i tried to find something to do...may be a part time job...
but i don't have enough effort to do that.

i should really study for my exams in Jan, but....
my laziness is uncontrolled.
it came just like that in my days...
filling the hole in my days...and i guessed it is succesfully done.
nilai UTS dan kuis kemaren2 di bwh rata2 lagi...^^
huuuu...it makes me to feel more sad...
but...however..i shudn't give up that easily...^^
use my imagination and self-acknowledgment!!!
and pray for a better result..
coz if i cant...
i wouldn't be able to visit my family next year...
huhuhuhu...

and i can hardly go outside this place...
coz it will take a very long time to go where i wanted to go.
as i dont have any vehicle with me, that makes me to take an angkot everywhere i go.

well..it seems i keep on mumbling about what i feel here..
but actually...its so great being here.
its nice and i enjoyed things...
and Thanks to Allah for everything
and i feel thankfull for my beloved friends i met here....^^

i have one new thing that i hate most bout myself...
which is.....i can hardly wake up in the moring....^^
thats one thing that i hate most..!!!
i have to change that as soon as possible otherwise i'll get mad coz i missed lots of beautiful things in the morning especially Fjar Prayer...!!!

keep on surviving...!!!
SMANGAAAAATTTT...!!!!
CHAIYYYOOOO...!!!!!

-Chie ^^

Typical Me...

2007-12-16T08:40:00.001-08:00

there are so many things to explore
there are so many things to learn
there are so many things to understand

how do i recognize myself...
and wat type of person i am for myself?
well...these are the things marked with a bold font in my head about me...

i'm a type of:
- person who likes to stand on my own feet
- person who likes to learn how to crawl before i run
- person who respect what myself feel and i hope i can respect what other feels too
- person who likes to see everything that i wish to see
- person, a high aimed person and kinda bit ambitious
- emotional person when i feel things are going not in the way its supposed to be
- person who wants to make those who trust me for my ability, for what i can do feels proud
- person who can easily get deppressed when i know that i keep on doing things that i believe it is wrong
- person who got dreams and i'll fight for my dreams
- person who never forget people who came in my life
- person who missed being with friends that i don't see for a quite long time
- person who feels thankful for what Allah has given me through my entire life
- person who loves friends
- person who try to learn to be a good moslem
- person who try to be an honest one
- person who never betray sum1 who trust me
- person who wants to make my family happy

so..thats the way i know myself...
i hope i could discover another side of me...^^

-chie

akhirnya...

2007-12-16T08:31:00.000-08:00

lama banget...
akhirnya...berhasil juga login ke sini...
huhuhu...setelah bbrp kali coba...
tapi dengan semangat pantang menyerah ala pahlawan '45
finally....!!!!

so happy...^^

How do i know things like this....? Part 1

2007-12-03T05:50:00.001-08:00

i didn't know things like these before one and the other thing....
doing things for the first time is always unforgetable...
'just simple things like....

1] ci ga tau kalo waluh tuh rasanya enak banget sebagai lalapan, rasanya manis. pertama kali ci coba waktu ci tinggal di Cimahi. ngeliat almarhumah nenek ci makan itu setiap hari...jadi penasaran... ci disuguhin itu...makan pake sambel...
ternyata yummiee.....delicious....
First Try : taun 2003 an

2] ci ga tau kalo nama St dari St Hall, salah satu trayek angkot Cimahi-St Hall itu sebenernya 'Stasiun' yang ci pikir itu adalah Saint. ci tau itu salah gara2 ada yang heran ko ci bilangnya Saint Hall...
First Knowing : taun 2004

3] ci ga tau gimana caranya browsing dan chat pas waktu SMA. ci tau nya karna ada kebutuhan untuk chat ama seseorang nan jauah di mato dan ci nya ga bisa. untungnya ada yang mu ngajarin ci...
First Attempt : taun 2001

4] ci ga tau cara berdiri di kopaja gimana, pembagian tempatnya setelah ada salah seorang bapak2 yang bilang ke ci 'de, cara berdirinya bukan begitu...ade madepnya kesini...dan sebagainya'. secara itu pertama kali ci naek kopaja..
First Try : 2006

5] ci ga pernah makan lele sebelumnya. jangankan makan, ngeliat org mkn nya aja dah gak suka...tapi karna pengen tau bedanya apa sama ikan lainnya...ci coba dech..makan pecel lele pertama di warteg cimahi..sampe sekarang...ya i still eat it...
First try : waktu makan bareng a'a ci di Cimahi

6] ci ga pernah ngejahit sebelumnya. karna emang gak bisa dan its a thing that i thought i need special gift to do it. tapi karna i was a girlfriend of gugi that made me to show my other feminim ability and care. i insisted to sew his sweater, yang hasilnya lumayan bagus dan berakhir dengan beberapa hansaplast di jari2 ku.
First Attempt : 2002, makasih buat Eggie Omanz yang udah ngajarin ci dengan sabar dan tidak mudah putus asa.

7] ci ga pernah bisa bungkus kado. ya..kalo ada yang ulang taun paling pake jasa pembungkusan kado. tapi...pas waktu lagi pengen ngasih kado ke Eggie Omanz, ci berniat bungkus kado sendiri, bersama Ka, kita sama-sama berjuang...sehingga menghasilkan suatu bungkusan kado yang artistik teu pararuguh...
tapi niat dan usahanya cukup bagus...
First Try: taun 2004

To be Continue...

Mudik......yu'

2007-10-19T20:48:00.000-07:00

mudikkkkkkk.....gitudech
yu'......

senangnya bisa pulang kampung ke rumah nenek kakek ci di Cigalontang. tepatnya di desa Jayapura, daerah Tasikmalaya, masih di Jawa Barat. pasti banyak cerita seru setiap kali ci melakukan perjalanan kesana.
dari Leuwi Panjang sekitar jam 10 an, naek mobil....(apa ya namanya...)elp gitu ya....????
yach pokoknya naek mobil elp yang bisa menampung penumpang sebanyak 27an. didedeutkeun ku si emangna.
wkakakaka.........bikin lucu pokoknya....
senengnya kalo mudik tuch ya gitu.....seneng ngalamin kejadian-kejadian yang pasti selalu bikin ci tersenyum geli....
berhenti di Garut, sambil beli oleh-oleh kerupuk kulit kesukaan kakek ci. hehehehe......
lanjutin perjalanan naek bis kecil. karena ga dapet tempat duduk, akhirnya harus berdiri.Untungnya ga harus berdiri ampe Singaparna, lumayan soalnya kalo harus berdiri sekitar 2 jam an dengan jalan yang berlika liku yang kadang bikin mual.
akhirnya sampe ke terminal nya sekitar jam 1430. lumayan cepet karena belum macet, arus mudik nya belum kerasa. itulah untungnya mudik awal. ^^
dari terminal sambil nunggu angkot ngetem, ci sholat dulu di Masjid Agung. sambil beberapa kali cuci muka dan maen air di sana. airnya dingin.segerrr.....

ini mungkin ke empat kalinya ci ke Tasik naek mobil umum. pengalaman pertama bareng uwa ci. yang kedua bareng Ka, terus bareng adil, yang kemaren bareng Om ci dech.....
cerita nya beda-beda, ada yang pake nyasar, ada yang mobilnya mogok ditengah jalan, the rest was just all fun.

paling senengnya kalo lagi di jalan, ya seneng bisa ngeliat banyak hal. kepribadian orang, respon orang terhadap sesuatu, liat jalan, liat pohon, dan liat awan es krim kalo siang. awan es krim yang memicu daya imajinasi untuk berkreasi dan bercerita. kalo malem, bisa liat langit dan bintang. selebihnya ngobrol ama temen seperjalanan, makan, ato tidur.^^

seneng nya bisa mudik lagi. Mudah-mudahan kita semua dikasih umur panjang supaya bisa mudik lagi taun depan.
ci juga yakin semua nya pasti punya cerita seru kalo lagi menempuh perjalanan ke suatu tempat.

Selamat Idul Fitri 1428 H
Minal Aidin wal Faidzin
Mohon maaf lahir batin ya....

PopCorn

2007-09-05T21:25:00.000-07:00

setiap kali buka internet explorer, site yang pertama terbuka adalah msn.com
so, what's the news for today ???
and what caught my eyes is about the popcorn's topics.the news is...
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4 major popcorn makers to drop toxic chemical

Companies working to remove buttery flavoring linked to lung disease

these are the lines written in the page

Several of the companies discussed their plans Wednesday, a day after a leading lung research hospital warned that consumers also could be in danger from the buttery flavoring diacetyl.

The three companies that sell Orville Redenbacher, Act II, Pop Secret and Jolly Time microwave popcorn said they planned to change the recipes for their butter-flavored microwave popcorn to remove diacetyl.

The chemical diacetyl has been linked to cases of bronchiolitis obliterans, a rare life-threatening disease often called popcorn lung.

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i love popcorn!

but my family used to make it. tapi bikinan sendiri... home made.ummm...nice...

my family like to cook. they cook everything. even Jay (my lil brother) knows how too make simple food.

when we made our food, we dont have to worry about chemical things contains in ...it except if the ingredients already contains chemical things. even Ndu likes to cook too. AND ME ?

I LOVE FOOD !!!

Kapolioka`ehukai

2007-09-05T01:47:00.000-07:00

"We can dream forever, but we have to do something now"

di suatu Minggu sore saat sibuk menekan tombol remote secara dengan range angka 0-9. ku tertegun pada satu acara tv. di TVRI. jarang-jarang nonton TVRI kecuali kalo ada cerdas cermatnya.hehehe...
tapi waktu itu ga tau kenapa i got interested to watch the biography session.
it was about Rell Sun.
I followed her life story from the beginning till the end.
A woman whom the tv guy called as -an-Ironic-Woman. the way how she struggle from the breast cancer and her love for the sea.
pada saat ia menikmati puncak karirnya, Rell didiagnosa mengidap kanker payudara. pada saat itu ia berusia 32 tahun.

the way how she loves surfing, diving..
the way how she loves the sea...
the spirit.its so lovely.
the way how she inspired so many people.
the way how she inspired so many children who called her Aunt Rell.

i love her..!!!

no wonder her name is Rell Kapolioka`ehukai Sunn as
Kapolioka`ehukai maens "Heart of the Sea"
ci pun lagi nyari film "Heart of the Sea" karna itu bercerita tentang biografi nya Rell.
tapi blumdapet2...hikshikshiks...^^

Food

2007-09-05T00:29:00.000-07:00

Beberapa waktu lalu...like a months ago Ndu and I used to consume fast food almost everyday like McD or KFC.
itu karna kadang kita pulang kerja nya agak malem dan males untuk nyari makan lagi. secara McD nya berada tepat di sebelah gedung dimana kita kerja.so its just a one way stop.setelah beberapa bulan dengan pola makan seperti itu. i feel not-so-fit.
bawaannya badan ini tuh berat banget.ga enak pokoknya. so, i thought it was probably because of pola makan yg salah and kinda unhealthy one. apalagi tanpa olah raga.
wow.. it make sense why i feel so-not-fit.
but it wont be fair if i judge something only using my own perception. after i browse these facts bout fast food...
well i guess beberapa kutipan ini mungkin akan membantu...
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http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Fast_food :
"Fast food is food that can be prepared and served very quickly. Stereotypical restaurant fast food is cooked in bulk and in advance and kept warm, or reheated to order. Fast food can also include TV dinners and other foods that can be cooked easily by the consumer, and food from restaurants that cook their food to order but specialize in doing so quickly."

http://www.helpguide.org/life/fast_food_nutrition.htm :
When choosing, be aware of highly caloric additions such as salad dressings, cheese, sour cream, etc. Sometimes, making your choice healthier is as simple as removing the condiments. For example, ask for a grilled chicken sandwich without the mayonnaise. Many restaurants are making progress and offering alternatives like salads with low calorie, fat free dressings, or grilled chicken sandwiches on whole wheat rolls, but if they don't, see what you can do to make your choice more nutritious and less fattening.

Below are some important things to remember about fast food/restaurant dining for kids :
1. Soda is highly caloric and not nutritious – kids should have water or milk instead.
2.Avoid chicken nuggets – fried nuggets are sorry imposters of real chicken.
3.Skip the fries - consider taking along a bag of mini carrots, grapes or other fruits and vegetables to have instead. This will add vitamins and fiber to the meal. Order the kids meal with some substitutions. Children often love the kid's meal more for the fun box and toys than for the food. Let them order the kid's meal, but ask to make substitutions for the soda and the fries if possible. Many restaurants are making it easier to substitute and all usually have water and milk available as beverage options. In sit-down restaurants, help them opt for chicken and vegetables or spaghetti with tomato sauce rather than a big plate of macaroni and cheese.

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Fast_food :
Because of its convenience, fast food is popular and commercially successful in most modern societies, but it is often
criticized for having the following shortcomings, among others:
-Many popular fast-food menu items are unhealthy, and excessive consumption (where excessive is generally defined as two or more times per week) can lead to obesity.
-Exploitative advertising and marketing are used, especially directed at children (which can have an adverse effect on their eating habits and health).
-It causes environmental damage through excessive packaging and clearing forests for animal rearing. It reduces the diversity of local cuisines.
-It survives on a low-wage, low-benefit employment model, promoting exploitative labor practices throughout the food and food service industry Certain franchising programs (royalties). Often lower quality versus sit-down restaurants. The fast-food industry is a popular target for critics, from would-be populists like José Bové (whosedestruction of a McDonald's in France made him a folk hero to some) to vegetarian activist groups such as PETA.

In his best-selling 2001 book Fast Food Nation, investigative journalist Eric Schlosser leveled a broad, socio-economic
critique against the fast food industry, documenting how fast food rose from small, family-run businesses (like the hello McDonald brothers' burger joint) into large, multinational corporate juggernauts whose economies of scale radically transformed agriculture, meat processing and labor markets in the late twentieth century. While the innovations of the fast food industry gave Americans more and cheaper dining options, it has come at the price of destroying the environment, economy and small-town communities of rural America while shielding consumers from the real costs of their convenient meal, both in terms of health and the broader impact of large-scale food production and processing on workers, animals and land.
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well, u can also check the site about the nutrients facts about those fast food.probably we can eat fast food but not to forget to be always balance about anything.
balance in what we consume, Just keep things in Balance...

no idea !

2007-09-03T03:23:00.000-07:00

beginilah nasib orang yang blum berpengalaman.
aku merasakannya....aku mengalaminya....
Tiddaaaaakkkkk....!!!!
blum berpengalaman dalam hal resignation yang jadinya ampe sekarang masalah itu blon kelar-kelar.
blum berpengalaman dalam bekerja dengan serius yang jadinya ampe sekarang kerjaan ku gitu2 aja...ga ada kemajuan dan alhasil ga pernah stress karna ngerjainnya asik2 aja.
blum berpengalaman ngadepin orang yang jadinya kadang berani tapi kadang juga suka nyumput (sambil berdoa...mudah2an orangnya ga ngeliat)
blum berpengalaman ngatur emosi dan cara berfikir yang jadinya ampe sekarang masih mood2an dalem ngadepin sesuatu, kalo lagee bersemangat ya (you go Girl!!!), klu lagi males (wess...jangan ditanya...)

ya....thats totally me...^^

can u pronounce "totally"???
i love to hear it in the way how an animated character say it...like....ummmm....Nemo...Yup! thats it. Nemo...
i guess...^^
its sounds like dhothallei...like that.smooth and childish.u may try...^^

hhhhmmm...i was supposed to be in a class now. having a class. one thing that makes me not to feel bad is that...
u knowww....i am a type of person who cant think in a fastly.
i mean in a class. especially logical maths class...the lecturer explained so fast, not too fast...just average fast.
c'mon man....i cudnt get it!!!!
ummm....when my eyes try to capture the x and y thing written in the board, trying to communicate with my brain...not just saying 'hello' or tried to be seen but made my brain to think what was that and count it right, its seems difficult. it seems i was left behind. seeing other student node their head that made me to think that...
"well, they got it." but me....???? D'huh?!?!?! i keep on writing and pretend i did it too (promising myself i wud learn it at home again).
but then, after a couple of days..i knew that it wasn't only me who got that problem. others too.
not only me (i really think i shud bold this) then i can smile :P , coz i just thought sumthing is wrong with me.
but now i guess..its all normal...coz others feels it too.
but then...i was thinking bout being accepted as a normal?
is the word normal reffers to something deals majority? is it so?
when sumthings weird and goes wrong? do we call it abnormal?
why do i feel like that???

anyway...being here...infront of the monitor, hoping that i cud go home as soon as possible.
i wanna watch Friends. i watched it last night. and i've got 4 episodes left.
i cried...my tears burst like i-dont-know-wat-to-call.
its so touching.lovely.

-- S.O-L.O.V.E.L.Y !.!.!.! --

oh one thing...i watched The Oprah Show when she disscused bout a movie bout the football team of Marshall University.
The Marshall was based on a true story and i watched that movie yesterday.
it was amaZzzzing...!!!
i cried coz it was really nice.
i luv it...i luv it...!!!
We are....Marshall!!!!

there are lists of movie that i want to watch.
-Cintapucino, blood diamond, the last king of scotland.
those are the movie i want to watch.

and one thing. Prison break.... tHat guy is so cool isn't he???
before starting another serial movie....wat happened to Heroes ???

well..i have to watch it...

What a plan

2007-09-02T21:55:00.000-07:00

Selesei kuliah Kapita Selekta, ci bergegas ke kantin untuk makan siang, pulang ke kosan, mandi dan solat. sekitar pukul 1300 udah nampang di depan kosan berharap angkot 05 yang merah itu lewat depan kosan. tapi setelah setangah jam menunggu dan muka udah rada-rada tebel tertutup debu, ci putusin untuk nannya ke Ayu, temen kosan ku, dia bilang emang lama dan ci pun disuruh jalan aja ampe nemu pangkalan angkot.
okey, then i walked down the street. it was really hot out there. i guessed this is one of the effect of global warming. u know, every little change about the weather, we begin to think it as the GW effects. anyway, so i found one angkot. dan sampailah ci ke Leuwi Panjang.
naek bus PJ yang ke Lebak Bulus. di depan ada batita yang lucu banget. he tried to speak to me. but as i already forget the language that i actually used like 19 years ago, i just smile at him. he was really cute.
nyampe di JKT skitar jam 1700. lumayan cepat lah.... dan what i found there is a long line of vehicles.well, i was kinda bit tired actually. and du was supposed to be there picking me up. but seeing the traffic i'd rather choose to get along with P20. but du will be there waiting for me at Jalan Baru. then finally somehow, i met him. missing him :)
padahal baru seminggu ga ktemunya....Huahuahuaaa....:D

Akhirnya....there i was in my room.kinda messy but its just alright. minggu nya ktemuan ama Dion yang baru aja pulang dari Soroako dan ngumpul2 ama yang laen.
ditraktir pula...duh...senangnya....ma'acih ya Ion...
malemnya...Alex yang pulang.ditraktir lagi deh...duuuh....
nonton Juventus maen sambil makan bareng. duh senangnya ngumpul2 lagi...:D

dan here i am now, yang rencananya pulang ke BDG jam 1100 tadi jadi ga jadi...hikshikshiks...karna...i've to stay at the office and do my job until friday. jadinya...i wont be able to get my classes for this week...thats not a gud thing. but its fine...i mean...well, i cant do anything else. i've to finish what i left as my unfinished tasks here dan sambil ngerjain tugas Resume nya...makasih ya bus atas URL yang kau kirim kan...
i read that.

hhhmmm....wat a plan.
seminggu lagi...hope it will be just fine...^^

Another day in Bandung

2007-08-31T04:18:00.000-07:00

Seragam.
whuawhuawhuaaaa........i actually dont like using uniform ....
but its ok....wat can i do about it anyway?

well, i took a walk in bandung. luv it....luv it....luv it...
Belum nata kamaaaaaarrrrrrrr......
jendela nya blum di terali'iiiiinnnnn.....
kasur nya blum dikebawahiiiiiinnnnn.....

jadi ga betah di kamar klu semuanya blum sreg di mata.
i have to make it neat and clean....
tapi yang jelas ga akan kosong
karna klu ga rame kamarnya...i feel somehow gimanaaaa gitu.....

blum blajaaaaaarrrrrr......padahal udah banyak yg harus di baca, yang harus dilatih, yang harus dicari....
uuuummmm.....i have to re-schedule my things...to make a new note ttg schedule dan manajemen keuanganku...
bokek....
tadinya hari ini mu beli bedcover Tazmania...udah kliling pasar baru..ternyata ga ada...
ya udah...pelampiasannya...ci beli yg laen2 dech...
i just feel i cant resist it....resist to buy things that i thought it will be nice to wear....
pemborosan....harus ditinjau kembali manajemen pembendaharaan dirinya...
jalan dari pasar baru ke Kings trus ya skitar2 situ lah....rute jalan yg biasa tea...
lagi musim cardigan dan kaos didalamnya kayaknya ya...
menjamur bgt model pakean kayak gitu...
jadi nya...pasaran deh....
yah..begitulah....cepat menjamurnya tren2 yang ada....

but people....u can stick or follow any fashion trend such as clothes or anything
but dont force yourself to wear sumthing that yourself know that you dont feel comfortable using those.
Just wear sumthing that u like, u feel comfort, and u feel confident to wear it....
:D

pulang dulu yaaaa.....yu' mari....

Kangen

2007-08-28T22:31:00.000-07:00

Kangeeeeen......^^

First Day at Dayeuh Kolot

2007-08-28T21:24:00.000-07:00

First day kuliah...

Wuaaahhh.....belajar lagi...^^

Senangnya....

Nanti sore kuliah LogMat. blum ngapalin n ngerjain tugas nich...
kemaren dikasih soal DB tentang 3rd NF, BCNF, dan kawan2 nya...

yang keinget langsung ->Pa Uriiipppppp......^^

catetan database ku dimana ya???

untung ci skelas ama rezqi dan ina, jadi ada temen sperjuangan...^^v
Chaiyyoooo....!!!

blum pindahan nih, semalem gerhana ya?
pas pulang kuliah sekitar jam 10an ngeliat bulan purnama...
indah banget....apalagi view nya tuh ya...di depan kosan ci yang baru ...
eh...will becoming kosan denk..
ya di depan kosan itu ada empang luas buangetttt...
liat refleksi bulan dari empang itu...sambil duduk di pinggir empang

wuaaahhhhh....romantiiiiizzzzz
(how cud it be so romantic??? well, just use your imaginaton dude!!!) hehehehe...

air nya dingin bangeeeetttt.....pagi2 mandi rada2 menggigil...
bakal susah mandi kayaknya nanti...
tapi dengan smangat 45....wat do u expect more bout that?

ada apa dengan handphone nya ya...???ga bisa nelpon .....hikshikshiks....

Wilujeng Sumping....

2007-08-24T23:33:00.000-07:00

chie dah ada di Cimahiiiii.....lagi !!!

perjalanan tadi was kindda not a gud one...as ga ada pembicaraan apapun.apapun itu.
sedihnya.......ci nya sih.....sok cari gara2 wae....

eniwei....
tadi berangkat dari karet jam 9 nyampe2 di pool nya v3 (pasteur) jam 11an.
trus naek angkot yang ke statsion, dari stasion naek lagi yang ke Cimahi. turun di Pojok, jalan sedikit. i feel so hungry at that time, akhirnya..berhenti di tukang mie ayam langganan ci.
udah lama ga makan disana....tapi tadi makannya sendirian....:( karena i used to eat there with my high school's friends.... jadi missing 'em!
makan mie ayam yang eunak tenan....yummiee...
ayam ama mie nya sama banyaknya...malah tadi ayam nya ga abis....saking banyaknya...
pake krupuk yang kriuk2 trus minumnya...apalagi kalo bukan "apapun makanannya minumnya........." wkakakaka....

kata si mang jualannya temen2 sering makan disitu juga klu sore2....rame2.
WAT?!?!?! trus kmana aja ci slama ini???
hikshikshiks....tapi ntar berhubung ci bakal menetap disini lagi, pasti ci bakal sering makan disitu.....WhuaWhaaaaaua....:D

tadi brangkat dari Karet nya buru2 banget. udah nyempetin nyuci tapi karna takut telat, baju2 nya lum dijemur :( jadi bau ga ya??? yaaachhh...terpaksa di re-washing dech nanti....
lupa bawa apel, lupa bawa facial foam, lupa bawa sikat gigi....males beli lagi disini nya...hikshikshiks....

agak panas disini...
i think i gotta go home now....blum solat....^^
Have a Nice Weekend Chie....!!!
Have a Nice Weekend Everyone....!!!

the other 1/2 day of today

2007-08-24T05:41:00.000-07:00

hhhmmmm.....

kindda mummet here.
got works to do but it seems everything is out of my mind.
last night i dreamt a MONSTA...
just like wat i watch on tv...those swamp monsta....
hiiiii....

but then a knock on my door woke me up. Ffffiiiiiuuh.....
tomorow gotta go to Bandung again...^^
nyari kosan deket2 STT situ...
mudah2an ada yang bersih , deket, dan murah....
eniwei, tadi dah liat jadwal kuliah nya...
kindda..ummmm.....u know...

i will start reading books again, doing all skull's tasks....
well....its nice anyway.
i just saw my Adil's picts in his fs...
well, he got lots of new friends there...
that's nice ^^
i also saw jay's one too...
i miss 'em....i miss ma lil sist ^^
i will visit 'em one day...thats why i have to finish my study as soon as possible...
Chayyyyooo!!!

they r a growing up one...and without their big sist around. i feel a bit empty bout that.
SIGH....!!!
well, when i'll meet them, they will be in their 20's???
WAKS!!! time pass in the way it shud be dude...

anyway...i shud continue my works b4 i gotta go home....
panas bahu nich......

miss u..miss u... (sing it.....in a Blink's way)

1/2 day of today

2007-08-23T23:25:00.000-07:00

ga kerasa udah Jum'at aja ya...
minggu ini dilewati dengan perasaan bingung penuh ketidakpastian.
ga kerasa juga hari senen besok udah masuk kuliah...
WAKS...!!! ^o^
my first day at class !!! :P
masuk ga ya?
masuk kul ato kerja ya???hhhmmm....

lots of things to do.
I havent even submit my resignation letter.
hikshikshiks...

fyi: lagi bokek nich....
bokek banget...:(
makan permen aja apa ya...
beli permen 1 bungkus gede trus makanin aja tu permen setiap harinya...
hemat kan...?!?!?!
katanya sich...permen bisa ngenyangin...
jadi inget waktu jaman2 kuliah dulu... ^^V

ARGH

2007-08-16T01:15:00.000-07:00

for today...

its just simple...

wat i want to do is scream as loud as i can and say "A-R-R-R-R-R-R-R-G-H.............!!!!!!!!!!!!"

not as easy as i thought.
lagi di warnet ga tau dari jam berapa. lagi dengerin Ungu -> Disini Untukmu
tadi sempet ke kampus baru....ceileeee...kampus baru...^^
ngeliat anak2 baru yg diospek..namanya sich PDKT
but terlihat menyenangkan....
jadi inget jaman-jaman nya dulu diospek....
harus brangkatnya subuh, nyiapin barang yang bejibun, mana berat lagi
(FYI : sekarang lagunya dah ganti...masih Ungu-> Tercipta Untukku)
Masa-masa "penyiksaan" yang sekarang jadi cerita2 lucu gitu...
ga kerasa udah hampir 4 taun yg lalu...

oh iya.....my slamet buat my best buddy yang disidang hr ini dan dinyatakan LULUS
Slamet ya Gie....

mu udahan ngenet nya ah...
mu beli cemilan dulu...
^^

15 Agustus 07

2007-08-15T01:20:00.000-07:00

malem ini chie ke bandung lagiiiiiii....
SENANGNYA...!!!
tapi bukan buat acara weekend an, tapi ci harus ke kampus baru ci yang letaknya jauuuuhhh banget dari tempat ci tinggal besok. ga jauh beda lah jeung Ciwaruga kalo soal keadaan geografisnya...
tapi Ciwaruga mah masih lumayan...deket setiabudi, gegerkalong, agak mudah akses ke tengah kota nya...
tapi tak apa lah...demi...demi...kelangsungan cita2 ci. toh bukannya ci juga yang mau kuliah disana yach??? hehehehe...
Eniweiiii....i hevent prepare what i need to bring tomorrow. surat sehat dari dokter blum buat, surat klakuan baik dari Polban nya blum ada. bagaimana ini??? kalo mama papa ci ampe tau that ada yang blum terseleseikan dengan acara pendaftaran sekolah ci, bisa2 ditelponin ci stiap 5 menit skali just to make sure that i can handle it.
they really know me...yeah sure! i'm their cute first daughter..^^
banyak item tertulis di benak ci ttg list to do nya ci...
nego untuk dapet cuti sebulan dari kampus boleh ga ya???secara gitu, ci ga mau bayar kompensasi ke perusahaan dimana ci kerja sekarang karna kluar sebelum kontrak berakhir...hikshikshiks....wish me luck for tomorrow then...

besok juga ci mu nyari kosan deket2 kampus situ, jauh kalo harus bulak balik...dalem bulan ini berarti ci dah 2 kali pindah kosan ya??? well, lots of things to do...
tuh kan lupa...ci blum ngurusin bayaran bulan ini!!! bayar air, bayar telpon, bayar listrik...
iya mending kalo rumah ci deket sini...tapi kan masa ci harus ke Cimanggis dulu...???
mom and dad is not here... So, its seems i've got the charge of keeping the household...

well, i'll do my best...they shudn't worry bout their things here...^^
ci bakal ngunjungin kakek nenek ci di Tasik hari jumat ini. aduh, senangnyaaaa....kan nama desa dimana kekek nenek ci tinggal itu namanya Jayapura, when i was little i didnt know that...
i keep on asking to myself that
"my grandparent lives in Jayapura????"
"they came from Jayapura???"
thats just cool...!!! but i became to know that its a village name in Tasikmalaya which is still located in Jawa Barat.
so, i think i'll go back to work as i have found wat caused the error in the code...
i've to finished it as i gotta go at 7 pm tonight.

Not to forget to say....
"DIRGAHAYU RI yang ke-62(2007-1945=62)!!!!!"cinta Indonesia banget....!!!
Have a nice WeekEnd Everyyyoooonnneeee.....!!!

-chie

Kangen ama birunya langit...

2007-08-13T22:35:00.000-07:00

ci kerja di lantai 3 dan di samping kanan ci banyak jendela gede dimana kita bisa melihat langit kapanpun juga. sambil merehatkan mata dari monitor yang sejak tadi pagi memancarkan radiasinya, ci menoleh ke jendela itu hanya untuk melihat cuaca hari ini.
ada yang sama beberapa hari ini.

langit yang biru tertutup awan sehingga udara di luar mungkin tidak terlalu panas dan juga tidak berangin. its a bit cloudy out there.

you know wat?!
dah lama ci ga ngeliat langit biru....
kangeeeennn....
kangen ama langit biru dengan awan-awannya yang bisa dibuat apa aja dengan kekuatan imajinasi yang kita punya...
kangen sama gumpalan awan nya yang indah banget....
entah...beberapa tahun ini...banyak yang berubah.
ga tau apa persis apa yang berubah, cuman kerasa aja.

mungkin global warming atau apapun itu ci hanya noticed kalo langitnya berubah, kondisi udaranya, cuacanya, buminya juga berubah
mudah2an bumi kita tetep sehat ya...
maafkan kami yang sering menyakitimu bumi...

jangan buat bumi kita ini marah
yuk, kita sama2 jaga, rawat bumi kita ini
kita sama2 nyayangin bumi kita ini
untuk kita, seluruh mahluk bumi, dan untuk generasi yang akan datang...

mari kita lakukan hal sekecil apapun untuk menyelamatkan bumi kita ini.

lets luv our planet ^^

Back to my own Palace ^^

2007-08-13T03:27:00.000-07:00

AKHIRNYA.......
i'm back to my own palace
seberantakan apapun itu, sekacau apapun itu
i called it as my palace
where i spent my most of the day,where i do many activities

a place for me to get away from the outsider
a place for me where i put so many memories inside
a place for me to meditate
a place for me where i take rest, have fun, sing, write or anything that support my life...
a place where i cry, i laugh, i speak, i shout
i did all those in my palace

i left my palace for almost a year...
smenjak ci pindah ke jakarta

butuh keberanian tuk kembali lagi ke singgasana ci
tersimpan banyak banget kenangan dan hal-hal yang ga bisa ci lupain...
like i was in my bed that night,
then i played that record of things that already happened in my palace
i like to see things from my window, i like to see people, trees, cloud and anything...i like to watch them.

what make me sad is that i still have that on my memories but the people were gone.
things arent the same anymore.
its not like what i have a long time ago.
it is changed.
but the feeling and the atmosphere last forever.

luckily i've got mumu...i shared things with him.
luckily i've still get my walls
luckily i've still get my trees...though its a bit dry...
luckily i could see the same blue sky again

i knew.
i'll make my past as my spirit to move on ...
coz its beautifull and i never regret it
it was the thing that made me to be who i am now.
its the history of my life.

luv u, luv me,luv us
-chie

ke Bandung Lagi......

2007-08-13T03:02:00.000-07:00

spending my weekend in Bandung was a great thing....
hari kamis malem yang rencananya berangkat jam 7 malem jadi ngaret 2 jam....
selesei kerja jam 7 ke Hero dulu di depan kantor....
baru langsung cabut ke kosan tuk bawa tas...(tas nya blum diisi apa2..)
waktu sudah menunjukan pukul 2030,
solat isya dulu...masukin baju yang dibutuhin ke tas...
langsung berangkat deh...
karna tinggal 10 menit lagi menuju jam 2100 dan travel nya berangkat nya jam 2100.
dengan segenap kemampuan yang ada, ci ama ndu mikir kalo jalan kaki dari kosan ke Benhil bakal makan waktu lebih dari 10 menit...
akhirnya kita naek ojek yang ada di depan kosan.
"bang, 10 menit nampe ya di benhil..." begitu kata ku ke mang tukang ojek nya...
salah jalan, nyasar, segala macem rintangan kita hadapi bersama...
akhirnya nyampe juga ke tempat travel nya.
disana Sony udah berdiri nunggu mobil nya berangkat.
untung belum berangkat.

singkat cerita kita nyampe di pasteur jam 2300 an.
dingin....udara nya dingin....
pertanyaan berikutnya.
kita ke cimahi nya mu naek apa? angkot udah ga ada, mu naek taksi kah?
akhirnya dengan pengalaman Sony yang pernah naek ojek dari pasteur ke jembatan Cimindi lewat Batu cuman bayar Rp5000,
setengah ga percaya..
masa cuman lima rebu? kan jauh gitu...
tapi pas ditanyain baerapa ongkosnya...si emang ojek itu emang minta 5rb...
wah....murah juga ya....

i cant believe it...
Finally...i found myself in Bandung...again.

Standing still

2007-07-30T01:45:00.000-07:00

i'm there or i'm not there

wont make any change in you

you will keep on hanging in your spirit tree strongly

no bad moment like what i have when you are not there

with me or without me

wont make any difference in you

you will keep on giving your best smile to people

no sad face like what i made when you are not with me

i stay or i leave

wont any of your tears falls down to your cheeks

you will keep on standing still in the tip of the hill

no tears falls down like what i did when i watch you walk out the door

i must be proud of you

for the courage that you have

i must be happy for you

for the big heart that you own

i know...life goes on even when you have to crawl

-chie ^^

Shape

2007-07-26T23:56:00.000-07:00

Ini adalah salah satu Lagu favorit ci...
Judulnya SHAPE dinyanyiin ama SugaBabes
lagunya ngena banget.....
some of the words are powerful and i luv the chorus part.
Nice Song!

u can see the lyrics (o iya, Lirik ini diambil dari: http://www.azlyrics.com/lyrics/sugababes/shape.html)

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SHAPE

[Verse 1:]

I live my life in chains
Got my hands in chains
And I can't stick with the cards
That I got with a deal
Like this I must insist
That a girl's got more to do
Then be the way you think a woman should
I'm taking it into my own hands
In this man's land I can understand
Why I'm taking command
Had enough of stuff
And now it's time to think about me, me yeah

[Bridge:]
And you can easily gamble your life away
Second after second
And day by day
You play the game or you walk away
It's a new turn on a blue day
And a cool deal of life for me
And it's all good

[Chorus:]
I know that the spades are the swords of a soldier
I know that the clubs are weapons of war
I know that diamonds mean money for this art
But that's not the shape of my heart

[Verse 2:]
I've always played it safe nothing's ever safe
Give me the courage to back my own convictions
Every decision I make I pay it back and more
Now turn the cards and let them fall to me
I don't need to play on with the hand that they have given me
I'll give it back cos it's not the way it has to be

[Bridge:]
And you can easily gamble your life away
Second after secondAnd day by day
You play the game or you walk away
It's a new turn on a blue day
And a cool deal of life for me
And it's all good

[Chorus:]
I know that the spades are the swords of a soldier
I know that the clubs are weapons of war
I know that diamonds mean money for this art
But that's not the shape of my heart

[Bridge:]
That's not the shape
The shape of my heart My heart
That's not the shape of my heart

And you can easily gamble your life away
Second after second
And day by day
You play the game or you walk away
It's a new turn on a blue day
And a cool deal of life for me
And it's all good
And you can easily gamble your life away
Second after second
And day by day
You play the game or you walk away
It's a new turn on a blue day
And a cool deal of life for me
And I'm feeling good

[Chorus:]
I know that the spades are the swords of a soldier
I know that the clubs are weapons of war
I know that diamonds mean money for this art
But that's not the shape of my heart
I know that the spades are the swords of a soldier
I know that the clubs are weapons of war
I know that diamonds mean money for this art
But that's not the shape
The shape of my heart...

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nice seat

2007-07-26T21:31:00.000-07:00

Smalem akhirnya ci ma ndu berhasil mendapatkan a gud spot seat di kc

tuk nonton Die Hard 4.0 karna sebelumnya nyoba ke plangi tapi dah penuh...hikshikshiks...

akhirnya ... dapet tempat ditengah...hehehe...not bad ^^

film Die Hard was amazing walopun for me...its seems so perfect.

it was a die hard thing.
tapi...i luv bruce willis...

sejak nonton die hard pertamanya...

yang paling ci suka adalah his character nya yang family man banget...

walopun di cerita dan kenyataannya he got divorced...

well, it was a nice movie walopun mungkin banyak yang bakal get busted di beberapa scene nya...
taun 2007 asa banyak film2 yang rame...

ada fantastic four, harpot, transformers, 300, the last mimzy,shrek,dll...

film dalem negrinya juga banyak, waloupun ci blum nonton
satupun karya anak bangsa...sorry bunda...^^

dan this weekend ci mu nonton Simpson the movie nya...

lots of things to watch...luv it..luv it..

o ya...but ada beberapa film lama yang mu ci tonton lagi tapi
blum sempet...ci mu nonton A walk to remember, the heart of the sea,

but for me, the awards of the "ga bosen2nya film yang ci tonton" goes to (make a drum sound plisss......).....THE LORD OF THE RING (applause..applause..!!!)

itu aja dulu kali ya....

nonton is one way of having fun time...enjoy it!

Happy WeekEnd... ^^

Broken Hearted

2007-07-24T23:30:00.000-07:00

and everything seems so dark
since you left me all alone here
you seems not to care that you dont stare at me at all
and all i have to do is just you leave walk outside the door

my heart scream , please dont go, just stay with me here
i wont do such thing babe, no such thing anymore
well, i just dont know what to doplease tell me what to do, and what to say
when my heart breaks into pieces
and you let it breaks infront of you,you let it fall, and torn apart

please tell me how i stand and will i mend this broken heart
when it hurts me so

well now i know...that i must stand and learn how to run again
well now i know...that my life must go on with or without you
well, now i know i have to smile no matter how painfull i feel inside

sorry if i ever let you down or do anything that hurts your heart so bad.
thank you and just take care of yourself better than ever
and wishing you the best luck ever...

Nice Morning ^^

2007-07-24T23:23:00.000-07:00

i saw three little cute girls di metromini pagi ini...
they were cute dan bersemangat
nampak di wajah mereka ketika mereka mencoba melepaskan atribut gengsi mereka dan memberanikan diri untuk mencoba
demi mencari uang mereka pun saling menyemangati satu sama lain untuk naik ke metromini yang saya dan penumpang lainnya naiki.
"Ayo...ayo..." kata salah satu diantara mereka
"aku yang bagiin amplopnya, kamu yang mulai nyanyi yah..." yang lainnya mulai membuat planing..

mereka pun mulai bernyanyi...
entah lagu apa yang mereka nyanyikan karena lagu itu kurang familiar di telinga saya
tapi seandainya saya tau...saya pasti akan ikut bersenandung bersama mereka...(wah pasti suara ci bakal merusak...:p)karena apa yang nampak di wajah mereka adalah keceriaan seakan akan mereka menikmati apa yang sedang mereka lakukan
sehingga saya sendiri larut dan ikut menikmati masa-masa itu

mereka menyanyikan satu lagu, dan kadang seringkali mereka salah atau tidak kompak...
hal itu terlihat dari bagaimana mereka seringkali berkata
"ups...(dengan muka gadis kecil yang tesenyum malu)"
atau melalui ekspresi teman lainnya lewat alis yang mereka naikkan sedikit...

masa-masa itu hanya berlangsung kurang dari 5 menit,
tetapi apa yang bisa diceritakan tidak bisa terungkapkan secara absolut karena itu hanya dapat dirasakan...
it was wonderfull...

ci hanya berharap mereka bahagia dan nothing bad happen to them...
amin.

i dont know which one of your smile is the best

2007-07-20T00:26:00.000-07:00

i dont know which one of your smile is the best
i dont know which one of your smile is the sweetest

its just ...
when you smile at me,
i can't do anything beside giving my smile back to you
wishing that it is my 8 seconds truly blessed smile

i like to see your smile
it gave me something like what i called as tenderness
it gave me a little strength to face things

i dont know which one of your smile is the best
i dont know which one of your smile is the sweetest

coz each and every smile of yours has a meaning
i dont even understand what
coz i dont need to understandi just need to feel it
i just want to say thank you for the smile you've given to me
coz its a gift for me
and thank you for making me smile
coz it helps me a lot

just keep your smile
do it with your heart
so that peolpe can feel the truly kindness of yours.

give the world the best smile of ours.
keep smiling ^^v

(the inspiration comes when i read zil's ym status)

wat a feeling

2007-07-19T19:11:00.000-07:00

I tried to think.
just sit down for a while.
took a deep breath and let it out.
i tried to understand
the fact why things happened.

was it my fault?
was it my responsible?
am i the one who shud mend it?
wat is this anyway?

those questions came to my mind
coz i taste like some unfair things happened
i know problems are there and they had a name
just like a package of problems with one pattern for each case

but i dont seem to recognize this pattern
i dont see any name i know in the package that can help me to solve it

i feel confused by myself
i tried to search,
through the sites in my mind,
through the articles in my head,
through the catalogues in my heart,
i even try to connect myself with other
searching for a name

but i couldn't find it
i felt exhausted
i feel i was out of breath
i feel i can't move on
i feel i wanna shout
i feel i wanna run
i feel i wanna hide
i feel i wanna dissapear
i feel hatred
i cant control my mind
i cant even slow my own heart beat....
i cant stop the tears falls down to my cheecks...
i cant...
i can't...
AArRRrRrgGghHhhh.............!!!!

i decided somehow
i forced myself in anyway
i took water and rinse myself by taking an ablution
i felt better, just a bit calming down thing
then i offer my prayer,after that
i took The Qur'an and read each of the ayat carefully...
i read it, and i cried...

i feel i've missed something
i feel i've lost something
i feel like i wanna get it back.
feel calm and gentle...
its just undescribable...

i saw the clock struk 3am...and i felt tired
so i decided to go to sleep before i start my day tomorrow
i slept.....

i woke up, a bit late
and when i wake its all vanished.
all confusing things dissapeared
and i'm all fit and my mind is clear
as clear as the sky today after the rains
the sun shines so brightly this morning
making myself feels warm
and feels so thankful for everything that Allah has given to me

and today...
i know what i've missed all this time
i know what is so less in me
i know why i feel so empty inside
so hollow

and by knowing why and what and also how,
i hope i can be a better me

-wat i'm thinking of -

2007-07-18T05:19:00.000-07:00

sedih....
kecewa....
mungkin itu yang dirasakan oleh pendukung Indonesia saat ini....
chie pun ada perasaan seperti itu....^^
kalah 1-0 dari Korsel...

tapi chie harap, apapun yang terjadi pada ibu pertiwi kita...
janganlah kita merasa putus asa
hal yang terpenting adalah
no matter how many times you fall, u have to stand up and try to run again with a bigger spirit and
all the failures and all the unsuccessful attempt you made, it shud make you a gud learner.

dan keindahan dari kebersamaan terlihat ketika kita bersama-sama mendukung Indonesia berjuang untuk mengharumkan nama ibu pertiwi,
rasa nasionalisme nya muncul...

dan chie cuman berharap, rasa seperti itu harus dijaga...
itu dapat menjadi suatu motivasi, smangat untuk kita berusaha lebih dari apa yang kita usahakan sekarang.

kadang kita sendirilah yang men-cap kekalahan, kebiasaan buruk itu pada diri kita
ketika kita berkata "ah, biasa....."
kita menganggap itu biasa...dan itu akan menjadi kebiasaan kita yang lama kelamaan akan membentuk menjadi identitas kita...
dont do that guys....
walaupun gak semuanya begitu tapi ketika kita berbicara ttg kuantitas = %kebanyakan orang, dan itu diliat dari statistika "%kebanyakan orang" tersebut....

jadi, ayo kita peliharalah rasa ingin maju, rasa ingin bangkit dari keterpurukan, rasa nasionalisme, rasa "kita pasti bisa"...

karna, KITA PASTI BISA !!!

thats all from me...^^
oh iya....
Applause buat pemain Indonesia.....!!!!
Applause buat orang2 yang berjuang mengharumkan bangsa ini...!!!
SMANGAT!!!

-Chie ^^v

My First Writing....

2007-07-16T23:40:00.000-07:00

First Writing
Ini adalah rangkaian kata yang chie tulis pertama kali untuk di posting... ^^

wanna say...

Hi!

salam kenal untuk semuanya.....

Lagi di kantor, jam makan siang, dengerin lagu Avril. dan chie mengetik.

ga ada yang so serius in this blog...

i just hope that i enjoy it...

about me....

i lived and work in jakarta.

my interest is books, musics, movies, and beads

i love strawberries, pucca and tazmania....

and lots more...

luv u all...

-chie ^^