feeling lonesome....

rasa kangen ini mulai menggerogoti jiwaku...
sedikit sich....tapi lumayan kerasa lah....
apalagi klo malam tiba...
weisss....berasa aja tuh hembusan angin bercampur dengan rasa yg dikirim entah dari mana oleh seseorang entah dimana...
omongan pun sudah mulai ngelantur...
pikiran pun sudah mulai melayang jauhh...
andai.....

ya...andai...
kurang tau apa harus feelin' into it so deeply sehingga memakan malam ato menguras imajinasi
atau...biarkan saja pretending rasa itu ga ada...?

lemah...
i might not as tough as i used to be
but i can't give up to this kind of things...

seneng juga kadang merasakan ketidak pastian...
tapi...apa coba yg bisa kita anggap pasti dan mutlak?
ya terlepas dari kodrat kita sebagai manusia yg pasti mati, pasti butuh makan dan lain-lain...

pikiran seperti...ya...jalanin aja yg ada...
sumtimes i feel it shudn't be like that.
i have tergets, dreams, and hopes...
i failed may times...
but my effort to try to stand again is more harder than facing the failure itself...
to make myself believe in it, have faith again in it...

i just have to re-think things again.
once i failed, now i stand....

-chie